A race yet to complete.

2010-12-01T23:47:00.002+08:00

Guess life hasn't been that smooth for these few months, but that's life right? I mean, what's life without a bumpier journey.

Nevertheless, every rough situation brings an unforgettable experience and lesson; and hopefully i do remember these lessons. I guess the only thing I need to do for my life is staying close with God, knowing that all things will come to an end, and creates a new beginning.

These crisis made me sees my own weakness and admit to it. But just admitting it, isn't enough. I know and I know that it is not enough. Seeking God; praying to God; relying on Him is more than enough but did I?

I guess, stepping down and being an ordinary member suits me more than anything else now. And all i ever want now is just the inner fruits of the Spirit, the peace; love and joy of God.

And only Him knows my pain.

2010-08-12T23:49:00.002+08:00

WAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Finally, my school life begins. And all i can give for my school life is *double thumb up*

SIM Econs and financial exceeded more than what i expected to gain from it. And just first week already had my first assignment, and my first group assignment. Well, still glad to receive than nothing.

Now that I have started my school life, I realized the big differences of university and poly. Well, of course not talking about the structure bla bla bla, but i am referring to my attitude towards school. It's always good to have a goal to achieve. Afterall, we live for our goals and dreams, to do what we are called to be("purpose" - in simple term).

I got a feeling... that I am just gonna be even better from now on. And I am gonna make it happen!

A dream, a goal, all for one purpose.

2010-07-20T22:41:00.003+08:00

Life have been rough, especially the path i am taking now.

whew.

Perhaps, really time for me to take a break.

9th July, a turning point.

2010-07-12T23:14:00.002+08:00

Yeah, 9th July is indeed a special day for me. Should I describe it as a day of happiness, or as a day of sadness?

Everything was going fine, all accordingly to what I planned for myself until the day i realized having iPhone is a disaster! True enough, many claimed that iPhone is good, iPhone is awesome, iPhone this, iPhone that. Nevertheless, everything have it's pros and cons, and i discovered the cons of iPhone. It was just way too good that it became a fault.

I met with an car accident on my birthday. Straight into the backside of a Toyato Axio with the head of my Kia Picanto. I was exiting CTE - Bukit Timah Road to a rental company to swap back my Suzuki Swift, that's when i was reaching out for my GPS(iPhone's apps: Maps) and was just about to look into the screen of my GPS and *BANG*. Awesome, how should I describe that moment of adrenaline, yet full of worries of the payment of the car?

First thing that came into my mind. WOW. Next, OMG. Last, SHIT.

And... a lot of things happened.

But but but, because of this. God showed and assured me of something that what I have been asking myself: "Have i really build any relationship with people around me?"

And through this test, God showed me a direct answer: YES.

You never know how blessed you are until you see with your heart. All along I have been seeing things that are just visible, things that are within my sight, things that what my 5senses are seeing. What the bible stated is true. Things that can be seen with your sight are things that temporary, yet things that cannot be seen by sight are things that are eternal life.

Money are just temporary. I hold on to it so tight that I refused to let it go. And yes, when it's not meant to be yours, it just can't be yours. Learn it in a hard way.

Yet, relationship are eternal. It's an invisible chain connected to my heart to your heart to his heart to her heart. That only when the tough times comes, you just see the chain to clearly. Like you put on a 3D spectacle and you are able to view it in 3D graphics. Only the heart can sees it.

I learnt a lot. Especially when I received Christ. Because of all the trials in my life, that brings me to what I am today. Forsaking of my past, embracing present and walking towards the future.

And I just can't help saying a million thanks to people around me, helping me walking in my life, completing my journey.

And most importantly, I just can't give enough to thank God, that He picked me out of the world and planted me in this very church; cell group - E376.

Loves.

2010-07-01T23:13:00.003+08:00

Here's what have been happening and what future events lies ahead in 2010!

What's happening?!

I am officially starting my English classes at British Council
Yup, I am learning my basic grammar all over again. But I'm loving it. ;)
Finally! I got my 'Engineering Economy' textbook. Time to study for the tests in NTU.
More study to come. But still, i wanna get my certificate for this. :)
I am officially quitting the admin/ad-hoc job on 8th July 2010!
Hoorayy~ No more long-distance travel and waking up early in the morning. :)
I have been blessed and blessed and blessed constantly by my family, and government!
Bible says, if you are faithful and have not robbed from tithe and offering, i will give you what is sufficient for you. Indeed, He gave financial support always just when i need it the most. Thank you God. And yes, government giving 200bucks for GST rebate. It belongs to the building fund.
I have been trying to catch up with all my friends, constantly trying to build a better relationship with them. Time is never enough, and that's true.
Yeah, now i realized how much can i do with the time available. True, i wanna focus on my goal, but still God will is always the priority.
A.R Bernard is here with us!
A great pastor & spiritual father of City Harvest. OH YEAH!!!! it gonna be awesome this weekend.
Pastor Tan preaching is always the best. And Pastor Kong is back, finally. After all that have been happening in City Harvest.
Once again, Pastor Tan gave another insight - Righteous with Mercy. Fav. pastor of all time, always simplifying things into our language. And Pastor Kong looked so fragile. Oh man. But it's great to see him again. :D

What's gonna happen?!

MY BIRTHDAY!! 9th July of coz.
I don't ask much for present, but just some simple wish that show friends that cares. :)
I'm soooo gonna take bike lesson soon.
God, please bless me with the money to learn.
SIM university. 2nd August 2010.
My goal: At least 2nd class honor. Upper or lower doesn't matter. Chiong ah!!!
Being more focus on my account; forex. mini one though.
Focus on more details. Knowing the end of waves and correct trading attitude.
Pastor Mike Connell. tsk tsk.
Too awesome. Wonderful deliverance pastor. Hope best^5 friend could make it for this.
Freshmen Orientation
YUP! I am gonna play to the max.
DX zone planning
I want to be more involved in ministry! In DX.
More bible classes pleaseee
Upgrade my knowledge in bible pleasee. Still half way thru Christian Lifestyle, and next Victorious Living.
Continue to sow in friends relationship
I want to be by the side of them through thick and thin, through tough and happy times.
Stronger prayer warrior!!
Faith to pray for others, sensitive to Holy Spirit.
My zipia items!
YEAHHHH!!!!!! I bought sooo many item, and thank God my mum is giving me as my bday present~ WOOOHOO.

2010-06-22T00:00:00.000+08:00

龚芝怡 - 明知我爱你

告诉你瞒着你只不过是个决定
放弃你忘记你只怕我无法前进
不知道为什么会如此莫名紧张你
我越了解你越靠近你越犹豫

明知道我爱你却不敢告诉你
我害怕失去你宁愿沉默不语
该如何整理幸福在手里
我恨自己无能为力

明知道我爱你却不敢靠近你
我假装不在意反而痛了自己
多痛都可以不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道我也没关系

告诉你瞒着你只不过是个决定
但为何到如今我依然无法前进
不知道为什么会如此莫名紧张你
我越了解你越靠近你越犹豫

明知道我爱你却不敢告诉你
我害怕失去你宁愿沉默不语
该如何整理幸福在手里
我恨自己无能为力

明知道我爱你却不敢靠近你
我假装不在意反而痛了自己
多痛都可以不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道我也没关系

明知道我爱你假装不在意
多痛都可以不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道真的没关系

Re-newed!

2010-06-16T21:20:00.007+08:00

A brand new skin, brand new me! :D

Anyway was sharing the other time, all about Thailand trip. This time round, i just gonna show photos after photos(but of course using video), to show my Thailand backpack trip. But unfortunately, i can't as it really damn long to just upload a video. -.-

Anyway yes, when i meant brand new of me, i guess it's time. Few years back, I said to myself: "I shall walk out of the umbrella that my parent have been carrying it for me." And now, I can finally hold the umbrella myself (though the umbrella belongs to them), but nevertheless I know and I know, one day i can buy my own umbrella and buy for them even nicer umbrellas.

(It's okay if you don't get the point here, it's my own view)

Suddenly, my doors seemed to open up. Not just a door, but is DOORS. Ideas keep popping into my mind, and hopefully i could translate them into action, not just NATO(No action talk only). But I know and I know and I know, that God is the only one who can lead me to the right direction. Like what the Bible says, not my will but Your will be done. Amen to that? :)

Till then, I shall update more if i could.

BACK FROM THAILAND.

2010-05-25T06:53:00.003+08:00

Yes, finally I am back from Thailand, with almost a thousand pictures taken during the trip. This trip is really really really SUPER AWESOME!!!! And i definitely not regretting this and definitely going for another backpack trip around Asia again. How i wish i can typed out all the events that happened during the trip, but i guess i won't be doing so. Because it really really VERY LONG!!! But no matter what, everything it's deep inside my heart and mind. Experience is always our dear teacher, ain't it? :)

When I left for Thailand, Thailand is still experiencing Red-Shirt protesters against Yellow-Shirt government. Though they were still in peace talk, demanding for an exact details of the early election from the government, tension were still in the midst among every Singaporeans who wanna go to Thailand, Bangkok. Even my parents especially my mum is uber concerned about me going there, persuading me not to go. Even had a small fight with her days before i fly off to Thailand. Nevertheless, I still trust in God that He is with me, trusting that He have the power to set everything nicely and well for me, I went ahead of my plans to Thailand, setting off for my first ever backpack with Darrius, Aizhen & Jialing; 2 guys, 2 girls.

The temperature there is definitely hotter than Singapore, and the sun blazing over us is also too strong for us to take it. We can't even last more than a day to get sunburned when we tried to explore Chiang Mai when we reached. Stayed at Chiang Mai for 2days 1 night, before proceeding on to Chiang Rai, which we stayed for about 6days 5night, and back to Chiang Mai to take a mini-van to Pai for a 3days 2nights relaxation. Lastly back to Chiang Mai again, to visit Liberty Kids Thai Orphanage.

All these are just simplified version of the trip. I will describe about the trip the next entry. :) Because the trip is really really really super funny, tiring, sweet and chilled! Scenery are gorgeous and too nice to resist it. Mountains are so natural. The sky is so clear that stars are surrounding it. People are kind, though there are a bit of language barrier. BUT STILL! everything are just too awesome. Way too awesome.

Made a lot of thoughts over there and I began to realize another part of me. Of course, it belong to me only. Thinkings that could allowed me to expand myself, enlarge myself, increase my capacity. Little things that i wanna do for my life, for my family, for God.

Trip to orphanage is great too. Met up with Orphanage Thai's Pastor, Pastors from Philippines, people from America. It's like United Nation over there. Haha. Learnt a few things from the Philippines' Pastors. Indeed, God is good all the times, and all the times God is good. Thankful to God for this trip.

"To be a disciple of Christ: Deny self, carry the cross and lastly follow Him."

2010-05-09T17:09:00.002+08:00

This week really is an experiencing & adrenaline week. First time ever seen such a market since i started out. Most of the time, the market would be just following the waves, counting waves would be easy and simple. But this week is full of fundamental. Fundamentals that brings the Euro up and down, fluctuating every hour, every minutes. And mind you, these fluctuation is not just normal 30-40points that your heart is able to tahan. These are what i call - the amplification of waves fluctuation. (AWF)

AWFs bring up to 3-4 hundreds points within split seconds. They made your eyes really started rolling up and down, pumping a thousands gallons of blood in and out of your heart. Causing insomnia, distractions, all sort of negativity emotional thoughts came rushing to your brain. Stress level went up, might even caused your regular period to go haywire. But nevertheless, for a small little trader like me, it just burned maybe about 5-6 hundreds USD, due to AWF. But still these 5-6 hundreds buy me experiences that you might just see maybe once a year or twice a year?

I really gotta admit, I am addicted. Really really addicted to the thrill that you get from this game. Addicted to the stress that causes you to unable to focus on your studies, game, what-so-ever you are doing. And slowly, slowly it is eating up your whole concentration. Your mind began thinking about every now and then. Just like love-at-first-sight. Yes, it's that kind of attraction it have.

So basically this week is the best week of the year. And i hereby nominating it as the best week of the year for now. Maybe my trip to Thailand might get another nomination, but for now, this is da BEST!

Oh yeah, just to share what might caused these awesome week.

1. Dow Jones Industrial had great free fall from 2.41pm - 2.45pm, about 1k points way down.

Reason? Rumour to be caused by a citibank trader that causes the whole market to plunge down.

2. Greece is really causing alot of problem huh.

3. European Central Bank is not doing anything to boost traders confidence.

4. Now britain is having an awesome election. Apparently it seems like current leading government are on par with the opponent (The Conservatives).

5. USD is going up, due to news given that more jobs created this month than previous month.

Actually there are more, but it looks like some conspiracy thingy to me. But anyway thats not the main. The main is Euro is crashing down, and tonight they are preparing some back-up plan for the bailed-out Greece. Hopefully all turn out well. If not, i gotta experience up and down for 1 more day.

YUP, 1 more day to Thailand! WEEE.

A simple thought.

2010-04-29T23:57:00.002+08:00

WAAAAAAAAZZZZZZZZZZAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!

Yes. Totally wassup man. :D

Enough of poser hip. Just happened to have a feeling to blog today. So, dear readers u guys are in luck today man! :)

Just realized that, when i am gone for Taiwan for 3weeks, SO many things happened. Like seriously, is it the peak season of troubles, or is it just the Devil wanting to attack people around me while i'm away? But dear friends, not to worry for as I AM BACK!! So give me a call any time you want @ 9xxxxxxx. You know you need it. :D

Yes, a look at the date and we all know what is it. 30th April. Something really meaningful is on the way to happen to me. 10 more days is all I am looking forward to. 11 more days is the beginning of another chapter. And i have been waiting for super long for this happen. 1yr 10months. Neither long nor short, but wonderful journey.

And I still have my new year resolution in my head. And its bringing me headache. I'm just 15% way there to my new year resolution. WHY!?!? Almost 1/2 year had passed, yet i'm just 15% of what i target. 85% more... AZA AZA fighting!!! >.<

Ok, whats next....... oh yes. My future plan. I have so many things in mind man. Alot of stuff is going through my head right now, that I don't even have a really clear and stable plan right now. But who cares, I know what i want right now and I'm gonna make sure I will get my wants. But I know if that's isn't God's will, then it shall not be done without His way. In the end, I still leave everything to You, my Lord. :)

Last but not least, I know God is faithful! Before even ORD i have already found a job. Though far but its a flexible job. It's gonna be nice. And He is always faithful, so I know that entry to SMU ain't gonna be a problem to me. I know that I know that I know, that God is gonna open up the doors for me in SMU, my ideal university to go to. So friends, please pray together with me ok?For an opened door for SMU.

Oh yeaa, this then is the last. Happy birthday to my dear friend - Gracelyn. You do know that I'm blessed with a friend like you. So wanna dedicate this to you. :) Of course, if you read this blog. haa.

Thats it. Tada...

**Words without thoughts are sometimes stupid, words with thoughts are also sometimes stupid. Just talking making people sometimes stupid.. hahaas.

nonsense logic i have.

And I say.......

2010-01-03T05:51:00.003+08:00

God told me something that really touched my heart today.

He gave me this verse Matthew 8:5-13
⁵When Jesus had entered Capernaum, a centurion came to him, asking for help. ⁶"Lord," he said, "my servant lies at home paralyzed and in terrible suffering."
⁷Jesus said to him, "I will go and heal him."
⁸The centurion replied, "Lord, I do not deserve to have you come under my roof. But just say the word, and my servant will be healed. ⁹For I myself am a man under authority, with soldiers under me. I tell this one, 'Go,' and he goes; and that one, 'Come,' and he comes. I say to my servant, 'Do this,' and he does it."
¹⁰When Jesus heard this, he was astonished and said to those following him, "I tell you the truth, I have not found anyone in Israel with such great faith. ¹¹I say to you that many will come from the east and the west, and will take their places at the feast with Abraham, Isaac and Jacob in the kingdom of heaven. ¹²But the subjects of the kingdom will be thrown outside, into the darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth."
¹³Then Jesus said to the centurion, "Go! It will be done just as you believed it would." And his servant was healed at that very hour.

This verse speaks directly to my situation. Yes, though my grandma is a unbeliever of Christ, but so? By faith i know all things are possible through Him, and nothing is impossible for Him. As long as i believe, I could be the one who asked for favor for my grandma.
Because His name contains authority that no one else have, at His command it shall be speak to the mountain to be moved into the sea. BUT, works without faith is nothing. So now the key is still..... FAITH.

Be healed in the name of Jesus. Amen.

2009-11-17T00:06:00.002+08:00

Some people claimed to know me, some people claimed they don understand me.
well, which is which doesn't really matter.

For i didn't understand the world and myself.
Once i was in the world, and were out of the world.
And now not sure in or out of the world.

Who know me? And who don't know me?
Only He who is both the world, knows.
Yet He choose to keep silent,
Till the day I gave up.

He loves seeing us suffer,
For suffering is meant something to Him.
And only those who fails means nothing to Him,
And those who succeed are the chosen one.

The cross-bearer, or the sin-bearer.
The Shepherd or the Wolves.
Who shall we follow then?

What's new.?

2009-10-05T00:56:00.002+08:00

Let's see...

Please don't expect me to blog as much as before. I used to have these thinking, that when i have a blog i could update people what I've been doing, I could share more of my thinking/revelation of certain stuff, or things that happened to me; be it sad or happy, and THATS what i THINK blog is for.

I thought, i could pour out my sorrowness if i want to, or pour out my happiness to share with others. But right now i got a new revelation and a new wake up call from God.

FAQ SESSION.

First Question.
Why is there a need for me blog?

I find it no more purpose to blog. Because i realised that the most important when things really happened to me, the very first thing i should sought and seek for is God's Words. It's no longer useful confessing inside here, this small monitor screen reflecting what I've been thinking. God has become part of my life, and I love Him and i know that He loves me too.
And as He is as my father, my spiritual Father in heaven, whatever things I'm going thru right now, He knows, thats because I am sharing with Him. With Him, I find my comfort and peace, my answers, my revelation and hopyfully some day i find my purpose to do for Him.

Second Question.
Huh, like how does people will know what are you doing nowdays?

Well, if friends really want to know what am i doing. Simply call me and ask! It is said that "Ask and you shall receive, Seek and you shall find, and Knock and it will be opened to you." Of course, I will try my best to meet up with you guys etc, call you guys or sms you guys when i thought of you guys. Esp when i'm not that busy. But still, i believe its all bout initiatives. U could say u're taking initiatives to read my blog. Thanks and I appreciate those thoughts, but whats the point of just having a 1-way road, whereby you just read bout updates but there's no interaction. No point. Find it meaningless.

Last Question.
Does that mean you will never update forever? Meaning closing down?

ERrr... Not exactly. Ha, maybe just post from events going on but then Facebook is already taking over blog. ha, so more updates can be found there rather than here. =)

So yup guys, i would prefer to chat over sms/phone rather than blog which is a 1-way thingy. Like, you could listen to Dj on FM but not talking or sharing what you think.

Loves,
Sebas

Self-Discipline

2009-09-13T15:05:00.003+08:00

I guess i really lack of discipline man.
Time to sleep, I'm not sleeping yet.
Time to work, yet i'm still lazy slacking away.
Time to play, i really play damn hard.
Time to think for future, yet lazy to think bout all these thing.
Time to worship God, yet focus isn't there.

Need to reflect on my life. Bout my priority of my life, bout whom shall i put first. Needless to say, definitely God is my first of my life, yet my words are not 100% tallied with my action. Contradicting eh.

Yet, God I'm gonna confess everything little things that I have let You down to You. It is to You who shall comfort and supplied all my needs.
Amen.

=)

Happy birthday to mee

2009-07-12T01:45:00.002+08:00

HELLLOOO EVERYBODY.. That's right. I'm back.
I may look like i MIA but i am not! *grin*

Anyway, just to report what i have been doing ---> Hmm. NTH! =/

Jokes aside, first of all i would like give my millions of thanks to those who wished me on the actual day of my birthday. Your love is being felt by meeee and I'm really touched. (Facebook indeed is a great tool)

And, just for those who not sure what I am doing in NS right now, I'm still a TRAINEE!!! Though its been a year since i entered NS, but i'm a trainee. This shows how hardworking i am, training all the time. =)

Last year when i'm 20yrs old, I told myself now its the time to chiong!! And now, another year have passed. And this time round, this is what I'm gonna tell myself.

Right time, Right moment and Right Choice.

Definitely army have changed my perspective of a lot of things. Some things that i didn't notice it in myself yet i know i have changed. This goes to show that I, indeed is older and older everyday. Still, the road is long, the valley is deep, the ocean is wide BUT my God is my day, life and song.
Loves.

Daddy.

2009-06-14T19:12:00.003+08:00

Went to help out ant w her bus-ing for Children Church. Once again, another great & TIRING day w the kids. As much as I enjoy the accompany of these kids, I felt like I'm their DADDY man.
Its was kind of an interesting experience and thoughts when i go thru it.

haha, maybe its time for me to have a kid?
kidding =)

2009-06-07T02:21:00.000+08:00

I'm back! This place looks kind of like rusty a little. So i guess as the owner of this blog i had to do some area cleaning huh?

Anyway, a lot of things happened and i did alot of thinking every now and then, sometimes thinking whether I'm making the right choice or not. But I guess after all the main lead of my life is me isn't it?

Alot of decision in my life is made by me so regretting isn't what I suppose to be doing. And looking into future looks like an more ideal choice to me.

Of course, I did think about whether Christianity is the way of life for me, but today God have shown me a way, a revelation of my direction in His plan for me, and I'm touched by His blessing. It's been real long since i last "saw" Him in my revelation.

Indeed...
Only when you are crying out to Him then He will show Himself to you.
Only when you are desperate enough, you will hear Him.
Only when you proclaim His name, His power, miracle will take place.
And only you follow His way, you will received the righteous of life.

Love Buster Part 2

2009-04-22T00:20:00.003+08:00

A followed up from previous post - Love Buster Part 1 - now I'm gonna continue the next 3 love buster shared by Pastor Kong.

Love Buster #4: Dishonesty
Proverbs 24:26 says: He who gives a right answer kisses the lips.

God wants us to have completely honesty with our spouse. Because honesty is an important factor for us, especially the girls as it meet one of their top 5 needs (Openness and honesty).

Having a radical honesty provides 3things.

#1. Provides a clear roadmap to resolve conflicts.

#2. Meets an important emotional needs
- Allows lots of love units to be deposited

#3. Dishonesty is an offensive!
- When there's no trust, it just meant no faith in each other.

Be it friends, family, work and spouse, no one would like themselves to be cheated on, to be deceived, to be treated like a fool who believed in people naively. But, sad to say that the world just happened to have people who are dishonest to others just to protect themselves.

Lets explore the reason of people lying:

#1. People lied to PROTECT themselves.
This type of liar usually 1) afraid to get hurt, 2)causing people to withdraw love units. So they lied, always thinking for themselves only. Self-centered people.

#2. People lied to LOOK GOOD.
E.g. You wanna know... lets say a beautiful chick. But you know that that is a high maintenance chick, but you wanna look good in front of her. So, you said you worked as a director of company, lived in a mansion, a few sports just right below your house.
Simple as that, you lied to impress someone. But we all know that lies can't hold for long ya?

#3. People lied to AVOID TROUBLES.
Blame shifting.

#4. People lied OUT OF COMPULSION.
Some people just lie about everything they could. They're just used to lying around.

Guys, dishonest will only postpone the Truth. It does not solve any problems and when the truth is being revealed, it will deal more damaged to the person that before!
But while we are revealing the truth, don't get honesty to combo together with other Love Buster.
For example, you just shout at your parents because you just don't like the way they do stuff! No, you are making disrespectful comments.

Eph 4:15 says "but speaking the truth in love..."

Now introducing 2 policies for Love Busters.

#1. Radical Honesty
Definition: Revealed as much information about yourselves as you know. Like, hobbies; past relationship; favorites; thoughts; feelings; history etc.

#2. Policies of Joint Agreement
Definition: Never do anything without an ENTHUSIASTIC AGREEMENT between you and your partner.

The place of agreement is the place of power.

#5. Annoying Habits.

Sometimes we get annoyed by people and people get annoyed by us as well, just that we didn't realized it at times. People usually thinks we are annoying because we don't feel what they are feeling. We are just so focus on ourselves that we didn't realized people around us.

It takes 3weeks to break a habit and 3weeks to form 1.

#6. Independent Behavior

Couples should make decision together instead of having 1 that is over dominant in the relationship. Being together is always a two way street instead of just a one-way street. You gotta give and you gotta learn to take as well.

Sometimes people just complained about their partner isn't compatible with them. BUT take note of this, no one is perfect in this world, and there's is no ideal partner you can find this world. You may thought that you found an ideal partner, but as times goes your ideal partner doesn't belong to your ideal partner anymore because you expected more them your partner.

Compatibility is something that you CREATED on purpose, not something you think it's just that way.

Love Buster - Part A

2009-04-06T22:04:00.004+08:00

Been enjoying great sermon by Pastor Kong for the start of the year till now, esp the sermon of relationships for couples together with some drama. So couples, DO TAKE NOTE of this entry ya?

The final conclusion for relationship series - Love Busters a.k.a Love Destroyer.

6 TYPES OF LOVE BUSTER.

#1. Selfish Demand
1 Cor 13:4 -5 :
Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; ⁵ does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil;

Look, love is kind, does not envy, does not parade itself, not puffed up and most importantly is, does not seek its own.(translation: is not self-centered)

When you're in love with someone, you think for that person. You care for that person, you stand in that person's shoe and you spare a thought for them. You made thoughtful request for your spouse. Your spouse is always on your mind. And you don't demand to give your the things that you want.

#2. Disrespectful Judgments

Who is exactly a disrespectful judgment person?
Ans: A person who is always criticizing about another person.

E.g. "hey, why are you wearing so ugly today? Why can't you wear something like this this this, that that that."
Or "eee, i told you that you can't cook this fish this way right? Next time put a little more salt, a little more onion for more favoring."

You know, people who always criticizing always thinks that they are right. And they always believe that they have the authority to comment on people. They bring the confidence of their spouse down. They make their spouse feel they are worthless.
Friends, if your spouse is always doing that, not sparing a thought for your dignity and always making fun of your choice, judgmental, then you know your spouse is one of the Love Buster.

#3. Angry Outburst

The title already depict what i wanna say. Anger management.
Does your spouse have anger management problem? Love to physical attack you? Some people may thought anger problem is about physical attacking a person. But the more hurtful attack is verbal attack. Physical damage is temporary but emotional damage is almost eternally.

And usually people with angry outburst, always think themselves as punisher. They keep on giving punishment by attacking(physical and verbal) on others.
Are you one of those who always scold and scold and scold or whack and whack and whack people? Hm, time to think about your action.

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Sometimes we always think that we can sacrifice alittle more for our partner. Thinking that your spouse will change, and you keep on sacrificing for something. But guess what, one day you will just be sick and tired of it, because you realize that your spouse doesn't get it and is not willing to change at all.
Love is not about sacrificing all the times. You gotta give and take. Most importantly, you gotta love and enjoy loving and being loved!

To be continue...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO.....

2009-03-29T18:11:00.010+08:00

To...
1. Katherine
2. Jiemei
3. James

That weekend really cost a bomb in my pocket man. Spent more than 400bucks just like that. Thank God, Jie Mei didn't organise 1. haa.

This month, there's seems to have quite a number of guest speaker in church and a few major event as well. First, we have Paul Schalon(sry but i forgot how to spell his name) and he is definitely an awesome preacher. He had the kingdom of God prioritized and he did what Jesus been doing, reaching out to people that we always doesnt want to.

Then next, we had Evangelistism Explosion camp. Though I went for first day only, but I pledged to ask some of my friends to go upcoming Easter Day Celebration. (Yeap! You will know it soon, cause i'm calling you soon. =D)

Then here comes a week of birthday celebration. Bombard with 2-3 birthday parties. Grrr.. Check out the photo.

And I finally get to meet up with my dear bro - miss rous, at timbre. Great night that day AND i get to DRIVE on that same day as well!!! Wooohoooo!!! Man, gotta catch up more with her next time. haa.

Next, IT'S MENS UNITED CONFERENCE. Woohooo, totally just men and Jurong West Church is filled with guys. Thats so like, army. Full of men. Squeezing bus with guys. But anyway, the speaker is......... Pastor Phil Pringle. He's definitely a man of God. He's a great speaker and man of faith. Will share out what I've learnt from there on the next post. So, awaits for it GUYS!

Pictures next!

TIMBRE CHILL OUT NIGHT.

Unfinished Drinks

And of course, my dear bro that I haven't been catching up with!

DARRIUS "BIRTHDAY" CELEBRATION.

(end up bday boy nv come)

JAMES BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION

Guess thats what girls always do?

*THUMBS UP*

LAST BUT NOT LEAST, THE BIRTHDAY BOY. (MINUS THE GUY IN WHITE)

KATHERINE BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION

E376's portrait.

Family with a retard

Mr. Jason.

My lady.

trademark

Last but not least, the birthday girl. =)

The Five People You Meet In Heaven.

2009-03-06T14:57:00.002+08:00

Some book that i read recently - The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom

Its worth the time to actually read it. Indeed, every small little things you did or say, affected someone else life and it became part of their life.

And it makes me start to think about, how will my Heaven look like. What do you see in your own heaven?

It kind of touch my heart, create an impact in my imagination world, and see deeper in another perspective view that we might/might not even crossed our mind. Nevertheless, it's sort of a breakthru for me.

If you have any thought about this, then lets spend a few minutes thinking about this..

Have you ever think about the impact you will create in another person life.

Is it positive? or is it just plain negative. Hurting their fragile heart & self-esteem, bringing them to the lowest lifeform of life and you laugh at it thinking that you're so much better than this loser.

Or have you ever thought that, whatever you thought/assume this world for you is worthless? That you didn't mean anything in this world?

No right or wrong, just plain gray painted by humans.

2009-02-22T19:49:00.002+08:00

Once again, I'm a OOC in the SAF.

So far this is like my 4th camp that i'm being posted to.

Another 3more months of relaxing.. Should i try to chiong again? hmmm...

what a question.

Valentine Day.

2009-02-15T01:12:00.002+08:00

To all dear readers: Happy valentine day!

To all couples: Enjoy this day because love is all around you. =) Appreciate them while u could.

To all singles: Its the best day to stay at home and surf net. =)

Anyway, what will you be doing on this valentine day? Have you got a date, or already secretly planned to give your loved one surprise after surprise?

Or are you one of those who were sulking because you couldn't get a date on this very day?

Sometimes i guess we just have to change our overall mindset. Couldn't get a date doesn't mean you couldn't get it in the future. We just have to persistent at time.

BUT that doesn't mean you have to be over-persistent. There's always a balance in everything we do.

When there is "there, there will be "here"

When there is love, there will be hatred.

When there's angel, there will be devil.

This is nothing but a fair and balanced world.

Another test.

2009-02-07T02:42:00.003+08:00

This test is kind of accurate for me. What about you?

Link: http://www.goldinuniverse.com/

You seem to be trying to sweep aside the situations (and maybe the people) that you feel are standing in your way. You are impulsive and apt to follow these impulses seeking to be involved in special or exciting happenings. In this way you hope to deaden the intensity of your conflicts, but your impulsive behaviour is leading you to take some unnecessary risks. Back down a little and remember 'more haste - less speed'.

You are in need of rest, some peace and quiet. You feel the need to be close to that someone special, that someone who can give you that special consideration and unquestioning affection that you seek. If you don't find that 'special someone' and resolve your problems very soon, you are liable to become extremely introverted and cut yourself off from society.

At times one is burdened with more than one's fair share of problems and this would appear to be your situation at present. But you are adamant - you know what you wish to achieve - and by giving a little and taking a little you may well find that the realization of your dreams could become a reality.

For whatever the reason, you find it extremely difficult to sustain relationships - that is to sustain them in the manner that you would wish. You are a very gentle sort of person, full of feeling, sensitivity and susceptible to love and affection, looking and longing for a partner with whom you can enjoy 'All things bright and beautiful' - someone with whom you can seek out the more esoteric things of life. But up to now this person has only existed in your imagination. You are very choosy, appreciative, refined and extremely artistic in temperament and it is your hope to seek others who will allow you to form and express your own taste and judgement and who at the same time may assist you in your intellectual or artistic growth.

You really would like to be completely uninhibited - to let your hair down - but you are held back by your sense of logic and rationalilty, since you realise that by simple stupidity you could lose everything - whatever that may be.

Words of gratitude

2009-02-01T20:43:00.003+08:00

You know.. sometimes we just have to go through certain things to know other thing.
Well, experience is always our dear teacher.

I may face some problem now, but i get to learn how to deal it.
I may be discouraged now, but I'm encouraged by people around.

Many thankssssss to those who understand my feeling, those who lend a listening ear to my problems, those who gave Words of encouragement, and those who tried to guide me back.
And yeah, i feel you. hahaaa..
Its been great to know you guys. =)

BIG <3

emotional on cny. great. ha

2009-01-26T22:58:00.003+08:00

I just didn't realized that putting an effort to do something, causes people to pissed off.
And great. Now I get pissed off as well. ARGH..

Yes, who exactly am I then?
What exactly do i have?
Where exactly i wanna be at?

*pooofff* all these just vanished and appeared in my mind.

Let me think.. yeah..
I wanna get my bike lesson asap.
I wanna be an investor.
I wanna be an economist.
I don't wanna be lazy.
I just want my whole cell group to be closer.
I just want people around me to be be happy.
I just wanna be myself.
I just don't wanna be responsible and play like a child.
I just... I just...... I just..............

I'm felt like a loser.
I felt so discourage.
And yet, now is not the time to give up.
But i really really really wanna give up.
I'm in between heaven and earth right now.
And I feel lost.

Sometimes, I just wanna be alone. And sometimes I need people to be there for me as well.
But I just can't seem to handle myself well.

Tons of emotional thingy issue going around here right now.
And I hate to think.

And all these definitely is just some part of emotional thingy I'm going through right now.
But please don't ask me about this.
I'm just frustrated.

NUA NUA SHEN GONG!!!!!!!!!

2009-01-22T01:50:00.005+08:00

RECRUITING:
Disciples for the skill.

Requirement:
1. You need to have the talent to be nua-er. (we don't recruit people that is too hardworking..)
2. You need to be in NS (being out-of-course is an advantage)
3. You must not have any passion
4. One of your hobbies must be sleeping and nua-ing.
5. You have alot of fav. spot for nua-ing.
6. You must be rich =)
7. Last but not least, we need you to have the passion to be nua-er.

Application are open to all.
Regardless whether you're guy/girl/gay/les/babo or butch.
Doesn't matter if you're young/old/granny/infant/middle-age/youth/teenager or young adult.
You can sign up for it by tagging at the cbox on the right hand side.
We are only recruiting 1 out of 6billions world population.

SO ARE YOU THE ONE?
HEHEHEHEHEHE....

2009-01-18T04:51:00.002+08:00

As the saying goes,
"When the prince is ready, the princess will just come to him eventually."

I guess I'm just not ready for it. Aren't I?
Yes, i can't deny that i missing her. great.

2009-01-14T21:56:00.001+08:00

I guess that's the problem of being too free. You would want to update blog every now and then.
Geez, but i got nothing much to update either.

In another words, this is a

REDUNDANT ENTRY~ =D

A moment of thoughts, another moment of foolish.

2009-01-12T23:18:00.003+08:00

As I lied down, staring at the clear dark sky.
The stars are the prominent, true north are found.
Yet, how often can we see such beautiful night?

Whilst admiring such scenery, my mind is full of thoughts.
Thoughts of you:
So near yet so far.
Far yet wanna be near.
Got nearer yet don't wanna be near.
How contradicting.
*laughs*

And I choose not to think, choosing to face it. Guess its time.
Responsibilities are falling on me, negative thoughts are back.
Confidence are falling apart,
but I guess its all part of life experience. =)

Identity.

2009-01-10T02:48:00.003+08:00

I'm totally not myself and I'm not awesome with that. And that sucks too.
Totally.

Had some great time at Brian's 21st, and it was awesome.
Which also reminded us that everyone's 21st is coming. Great, bigger pocket hole now.

And now I hate this feeling/thinking in my brain. Its like 7/2, which sucks. lol

Anyway, suckamania.
Gotta buck them up.

2009-01-06T01:07:00.001+08:00

How nostalgic of those photos is.

Now I'm missing those days.
And yes, this year is 21yr old.
OH MAN!!!!!!!

BRAND NEW YEAR AND 2008 MEMORIES

2009-01-01T20:13:00.035+08:00

Total brand new year, and to make it as if it is a sign from God, look:
1. My usual blog is being hacked (damn that fellow)
2. I lost my whole wallet. (inclusive of all the identification card)

Basically, what i'm trying to say is:
Throwing away the past is one of the way to start a brand new year.

2008 is definitely an up and down curve, and its totally good.
Keldy's theory: Our life journey is from a point to another point. Our life have to be up and down. Because if everything is constant, life line would be just a straight line, and what do we see at the other end? Death. Hence, up and down is sort of like making you feel like life isn't short. A moment you could see death, another moment you see heaven. Its not like you'll see it instantly.

And yes, on this very 1st day of 2009, its my LAO DOU bday. Though how much i wanted to join cg chill out day, still to be celebrating dad's birthday with cake all those was more of a priority and I had never really celebrate with him till now.

Before i ended this post, just wanna let all these people know:

God, i super love you guys. You guys are awesome in my life.
Of course, that's included vin, pok, keldy, james, yijiang, yuan, brian
and of course my best^5 friend - huixian, jiemei and kim, reena, eve,
siping, eleen, and many other more.

AND WITH THAT, LET'S ENJOY THE START OF 2009 AND 2008 MEMORIES.

2008 events: Let's look at it...

2008-12-27T02:18:00.002+08:00

Christmas 2008, one of my best Christmas in my life for now i guess.
Definitely not because I became a Christian and I'm trying to be flaky over here but being a Christian is definitely part of the reason. It's because I became a Christian that led me know this cell group which makes this Christmas super fun.

Seriously, I have never really really enjoy bout Christmas Day. It just like another public holiday to me? Never had Thanksgiving Day, never bought present for close friends around, and never ever tried to appreciate them to the extreme.

But i guess we all grow, you know? And we changed, we met more different kind of people, different culture, different environment. But know what, friendship still there. It never gonna disappear just like that, unless we make a choice of giving up a friendship.

So yup! Next year, Christmas is not just going to be any Christmas. I gonna make it happen!

2008-12-22T18:38:00.002+08:00

At times, there are some situation you wouldn't want to face it at all.
And at times, there are some situation you would rather avoid it and keep running away from it.
AND then at times, there are some situation you are left with no choice but to face it.

STILL, we have to face it. Because we all know that deep in our heart, its telling us to settle it once and for all.

Maybe I'm blinded for don't know how long, or maybe its not me who is blinded, but nevertheless, i just realized something important in my life.

and that is the people around me.

2008-12-22T01:15:00.001+08:00

Ugh, i guess the older blog is already gone case. Somehow got hacked again. Anyway, this will be my new blog so please do take note. =D

Words for the day:
A small little things will make a difference between you and others, and it's true.

P.s: tagboard will be shifted to here soon. =)